well, since id better update before this place gets deader, like thats possible
anyways
i guess i should write something about something........ duh
well at least something close to my heart

well
being the socially deprived, and stunted person i am
i guess i should take a while to appreciate the people whom i do call friend

something i find really interesting


i entered jc thinking id hate all ac boys guts
maybe it was 10 years of education behind that
haha
then my sfc pres became an ac guy
and i met chaos
haha
and i soon unlearnt what 10 years of flying sa colours taught me

hahaha
well
maybe i do bully chaos abit too much still
but hey
at least i dont do it maliciously......

the same ticket, mine black, his white,
jigsaw pieces too
didnt know we'd carry around the same false hopes and wishes, the same memories and realised dreams

crazy world aint it
well maybe 2 out of many isnt such a bad track record
anyways
im going to wallaby tml
and it seems for some reason that no matter who i try and meet up with
its fated not to happen
meh
its sucks, more than i thought it would

You are my strength when I am weak.
You are the treasure that I seek.
You are my All in All.
Seeking You as a precious jewel.
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool.
You are my All in All.

daresnt i hold on
even as my world come crashing down
who else do i have

im so so scared
i dont know how to face another day
but You
You are there
even in the darkness
wiping away the tears that refuse to fall
piecing me back together even as i shatter

help me God
to hold onto You even as everything else slips away

i throughly enjoyed myself, wind in my hair and all that
thanks
wish it lasted longer
but i guess that's my doing
hmm

you are
amazing
don't let anything tell you otherwise

we are who are,
no more, no less
cause even if the world doesnt admit it
we're not the one's off axis

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

i dont know,
it never stops raining around these parts
where is my sunshine? please dont take it away

i think i may have just found the light again

just watched hairspray...
amazing how much i enjoyed it
havent watched a "happy" movie in a long time

haha

well
its the first long weekend ive gotten in some time
time to rest and get refreshed


...........and there comes a time in one's life,
when one begans to consider...................



and no jiayan, my name isnt teddy......................

back from a long long tekong trip
well
any trip to tekong is too long
especially when it ends up burning my weekends
well
seen enough casualties for a life time
this time it was a guy who lost a bit of the tip of his index finger

one thing i did learn was that all the people in my unit who carry 3 bars on their shoulders tend to be a******....
well
i guess there are lots more, but i guess its poignant when these specimens in question wield such power...

u'd expect that having the talent and character to warrent promotion, these people would be a level above the rest

all ive figured out is that they stink alot more than the rest

bleagh why talk about them

just when i thought i was getting used to it
it gets worst

now i just figure im getting used to the way things stink

i just got my weekend burnt due to the army half marathon cover
gosh
i dont think i'll forget it for some time to come
how often do we get casualties who die?

i wasnt that involved in his case i guess





am i always so disconnected from others

someone dies in front of me,
accidents happen around me
and i dont feel a thing inside




well on another note
i met this really cute girl at the ahm

......