the view is much different, staring down from the edge and looking up from the bottom of a pit

seems from down here, all my good advice, and previous good intentions all come to naught
all my experience and wit seem to only help me run away

sun tzu knew well, retreating was always the smarter choice

i feel like im becoming more and more and empty shell
like ive been deflated
no more metaphysical purpose for existance

the doughnut man was right
life without jesus is like a donut
cause there's a hole in the middle of your heart

but i burnt the bridge behind me
and i dont know a way back
feel too much that its all a farce
even though i know better

i seem to have run out of will to find a way back
fallen into this bog of black bile and phlegm of my own making

someone wake me from this dark night of the soul

omg omg omg
tonight was just one of the best nights ever

group of friends, chilling at timbre
good music
decent pizzas
great erdinger

and of course
jason mraz's lucky

i mean,
yeah
we did spot adrian pang there and all

but he didnt do a rerun of much ado about nothing
so no great show

but tim wan/handsome wan
got on stage on my behalf and co-sang lucky

omg
this is officially my fav life performance, even if its only one song
so move over lifehouse
hahahhaha

ive always thought the 21st bdae thing was overated
but tonight was just brilliant

thanks to all the ppl who turned up
in no particular order, well maybe height
yvonne eng, ian lau, emm gay
joel ong, aloy, chao yuan
nic and tim
and yeah thanks pris and soph for the lovely cake, walnut that tasted like carrot

thanks much

i feel like ive forgotten how to breathe
im underwater, without a tank
this cloud all around, pressing down, making hard to be

i got into the CN Yang scholars programme which is really cool beans

mmm
on a slightly more somber note
now i must skip bjj on sat and go hide in jb thanks to tan chao yuan

gosh
cant a guy survive his birthday in peace

ive lost my muse
any idea where i can find one at half price?

yesterday was a really interesting day

in the afternoon i went to ps to participate in the blood donation drive
some people think blood donation is a painful and scary business
but it isnt really?

the worse pain comes from the needle prick they do to ur finger to test the iron content of ur blood

the only other thing that hurts is when they administer the localised anesthetic, which hurts abit cause they inject liquid under your skin
that being said, the part that hurts isnt the needle going in, cos they even give u some anesthesia to ur skin b4 that

all in all, giving blood is one thing u can do to help others in need??
i mean, u dont even need to put in much effort
and u get free milo, raisins and biscuits afterwards

went to watch Much Ado About Nothing after that with Joel Lian
which was kinda weird at first
bcos most of the audience that went comprised of couples,
which made us feel kinda odd, as two guys going together

it was an enjoyable experience, watching shakespear the way shakespear was intended
out in the open, in a more rowdy setting
adrain pang was good
but i felt the rest of the cast couldnt or didnt match his energy
the comedic parts were engaging
but sadly the melodramatic parts and romantic parts werent very believable
the cast chemistry also was quite lacking

we did the italian picnic thing
which involved buying bread, cured meats, and cheese
it was alot better than our attempt in rome in which, the bread was too much, and too hard
the wine was too sour
and well, too much of everything
this time by comparison, in the immortal words of borat
a great success

had high tea/dim sum buffet at zhou's kitchen at anchorpoint yesterday

its one of the best dim sum buffets ive gone to

you have to order all the food, none of it is al fresco
but i guess its kinda fresher because of that

and after stuffing our faces
we went over to ikea to lie down on couches

havent done retarded stuff like sampling couch after couch in a long time
gosh