in an attempt to put in order and make sense of some of my thoughts, ive decided to start blogging abit more regularly

i think my mind works alot like an episode of the simpsons
lackign coherence, and going all over the place

so anyways
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while walking back to hall today, i had that fleeting feeling again
something akin to what CS Lewis describes as that sheer northerness
im hoping its the same, but in a post-mordernistic world can experiences every be similar?
but yeah
that sense of awe and lonliness of the sheer scale of the world around us
i think one draw back of living in a globalised world is that we lose a true perspective of size
shrinking distances make us seem so much larger and all important
we lose our sense of relativity to sheer vastness

the heights, depths and volume of reality

i used to romanticise stoicism
but i think as ive grown (hopefully i have)
i learn more about of the virtues of weakness and vulnerability
how sometimes being simple and fragile is much

i wish i knew what pursuing something at all cost would feel like

honestly,
im just shit scared