the dillusion fades,
the illusive dream dies,
and im left trying to grasp the void i threw myself into

i took analgesic to numb the pain
but the effects are wearing out,
and im left feeling dazed

left stunned by change,
i long for times now but a memory
out of place,
like a runner with no race,
i feel despair slowly creeping in

drawn now to a darkness once so familiar
to an tune of pain, despair,
to the empty desolution that i experience all to often

romanticism of emptyness?
is that all thats left of me?
burying my head in lies
taking false comfort in what is not there

Oh God open my eyes again,
thaw my heart,
to know how much i need You again