JC

hmm
2 days in JC, things are so different there
see so many different people now
back in SA it was well, comfortable and routine i guess,
not many new people to get to know,(not many i wanted to get to know either)
hmm
but well
met alot of i guess nice people,

its amazing really, what draws me back to God
hmm
i really thought after the 1st day tt JC would be my burial ground
the place where with all the worldliness, peer pressure and secularism,
i would be drawn by fools gold
sucked into a self destructing state of appeasing my carnality
but well
in the last 40 mins of day 2 things changed so much

hmm
firstly i'd like to thank Thaddy, hehe
God used you to speak to me alot even though you didnt realise it
its like
now there is a draw again
hmm
well
even though its not from church
and well
hmm
maybe i got some other interest that isn't really right,
well
God is drawing me back
i just hope i can submit

hmm
some people seem so on fire for God
and well
honestly, im quite ashamed
my heart so drawn by other things
help me Lord to come back

drawn away by temporal lights
given my heart to useless idols,
i have wondered away,
walking now after things i once condemned
have i reached a point of no return?
given in to sensuality and my carnal desires?

even then i feel the small plea in my heart
begging me to return
once again the Saviour knocks on the door, asking to be let in
His grace simply overwhelms me,
washing over me
how long more will i run before i give in?
break my will
do it fast
don't let me rebel too long
don't let me fall away

i want to end with a song
it was written by a christian band called mercy me

take this world from me
i don't need it anymore
I am finally free
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise You
Oh and I worship You

Covered by a love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear You say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for

Now I have a peace
That I've never known before
I find myself complete
MY heart is spoken for
By the power of the cross
you've taken what was lost
And made it fully Yours
And i have been redeemed
By You who spoke to me
Now i am spoken for

Covered by a love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear You say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for