thrilless

Nothing seems to be of interest anymore.
i dunno,
wad i want seems so far out of reach,
everything else that seemed pragmatic and prudent has just lost its luster,
as someone told me before,
im becoming motivated only by the prospect of discomfort,

In simpler terms, i do all i can to avoid possible unpleasantries,
instead of chasing after what would be desirable

is that what it has come down to?
even lower primates and other animals know how to perform tasks to avoid discomfort
have i fallen to such a stage?
no ambition what so ever?
no goals what-so-ever
nevermind whether short term or long term but none at all?

looking at current circumstances,
well i've actually been really blessed recently
isit as rev. tony said
when we satisfy the physical but not the spiritual,
we end up really disastisfied.
i wonder whether thats my case
everything seems to be going well
but why isit i find it so hard to find satisfaction?