I'm home enough to know I'm lost

Sometimes I wish there was less uncertainty,
but I guess its not up to me to decide
sometimes I feel as if we're on the knifes edge,
other times, I dunno if I feel at all
but anyways
I dunno
somehow I feel as if I never cared more in my life

my new found home, family
never thought I would find it here
but I have
and now I'm scared of letting go

I dunno
I find myself groping in the dark sometimes
chasing the fugacious blossoms of past beauty, lost in the continuity of time
pursuing some dream now illusory...
i know now that its pointless to try and return to that point
everyone and everything has moved on
so i have decided to grasp what i have now
but i fear it is slipping away from me

maybe this is the first time i really care
i dunno
this is so new to me
sometimes i just feel so helpless and lost
but im not gonna stand down i guess

something has to be done,
either we go down, regretting
or
or else.....
pray that i may find
find the grace we all need,

Confused enough to know direction
Sun eclipsed enough to shine
Be still enough to finally tremble
See enough to know I'm blind
See enough to know I'm blind