mugging hard now
prelims in 3 days...
so what am i doing online blogging?

well everyone needs a break
and i think i need to let off some steam

my people problems and lack of patience seem to pop up during examination times

well
maybe i do enjoy the sedentary lifestyle of just having to study and being free of many other obligations and regulations

but having to stare at books just isnt my thing
and i think i'll never be a teacher
because it just needs so much patience...
i mean,
i do enjoy helping people
especially when they are appreciative and co-operative
and well are quite pleasant i guess
i just cant stand some people's attitude......


enough of that i guess
i have been feeling a great amount of uncomfortability and distress recently
wont dwell on it too much here because, yeah
gotta hit the books

its just that
something doesnt feel right anymore
hai

so much fear
dont dare to take the next step
dun dare to hope, to dream, to try...
to give you up, i hesitate
but i never deserved you in the first place
just learning to let go i guess...
to resign myself to hear you breathing while i sit outside heavens doors.....