well, ive thought of closing down this blog
cos well
its hard to upkeep especially when i dun have com access 5 and a half days a week
but i guess i shall let it live, maybe even if only for a while longer

10 weeks in tekong have pass by
and well
i dun noe why but the last week was probably the most miserable
maybe its because i fell sick
or maybe

hai
entropy is getting to me
whether we like it or not time flows forward
things move on and events cant be reversed
and im left with so many regrets

this cny proves to be the most lonely one yet
with my sis and mom overseas, and the notion of booking in looming
hai

i guess i am an elitist
and maybe alot of things worse than that
i wish

hai

i would give so much just to go back a year or two
but i cant
i guess its about making the most of the present
hopefully i havent screwed it up too much yet

i feel like im sinking
like im losing part of myself
some how i just cant seem to find my place
help me..... please