so im left here wondering why

u take me in even with my iniquity

my indifference

my indecisiveness....

so many times i want to go my own way

to chase after pretty rainbows



thought myself stoic

but now i see the truth

of the approval that i so seek

i guess im scared of being vulnerable
but truth is, embracing one's weakness is strength
in some paradoxical fashion

ahh
paradoxes
they run through even the fabric of a metaphysical reality
but on a more personal level
i guess in admitting my spiritual level isnt alright
i guess i grow in love for Him

sometimes i wish i could go further than the admitting part
sometimes i wish i could be more
be better
help me find a way
back to that place
where everything fades
and only love remains