one last post before i go
this one to the person at home who puts a smile on my face every time i book out
and makes me feel like crying when i have to book in
my grandma
not that she'll read this
but yeah
i guess i need to capture her in a moment too

she's old she's frail
she's taken care of me through the years
i remember how i used to hate her nagging and her fussing
but im starting to miss it now

everytime i book out and see her
she seems weaker
frailer
she cant move around as much
and she seems to forget a whole lot more
i want to spend so much time with her
before i lose her more
im scared for the day when i book out and realise ive lost more of her

i rmbr how i booked out and found out she fell
i rmbr how i booked out and found our she went for an op
maybe its because im getting bigger, but she seems to be getting smaller than i rmbr

gosh
i dont know
we're dying, every second every minute every hour
i wish we'd learn to live like we knew we are dying