but You reached out into my darkness

today was kinda brought close to tears
by the passage in matthew 5
the beattitudes
which talk about how God blesses the poor in spirit.... etc

the speaker mentioned how our poverty is like those of beggars
who in our shame dare not show ourselves in the light
but hide in darkness just reaching out our hands for alms

and how God comes, and reaches down to us
and brings us up and out of the darkness

all good, nice and important lessons
but how much of it do we end up remembering and applying
before routine and life comes and dilutes it or takes it away

its so easy to go from one moment being humble
to delighting in ones own "humility" or breakthrough in thought

but i guess thats the uphill struggle we all fight

and that moment
that glimpse of Your face
of touching part of You in worship

must count for something
shdnt it?

im not really looking for a church primarily
and i dun really have a plan?
im just looking for God where He may be found
to go to that place where trivial pursuits fade, yet make sense
and see where He leads from there