for those of you whom i havent told yet
im going
erm
im not dying of cancer, nor am i going overseas
but yeah
ive decided that one season of my life is behind me
its strange really
i used to despise church hoppers
but now im one?
mmm
theres this principle, that its not only what you're running from
but what you're escaping towards
but i dun have such lofty goals

ive lost something
and im just trying to find it
to find that bit of myself
im not trying to justify myself
and i wont

im at peace with myself and God
and i guess thats plenty for me

strange
i started by asking God to bring me beyond the superficiality into something deeper
something that counted
something alongst the lines of fulfilling destiny
im not sure how ive come to this place
maybe its my own willfulness
well
out into the wilderness
even after years
Nebuchadnezzar managed to humble himself

mmmm
so far those whom feel led to invite me please do
i kinda hate planning my own itinerant
so it'll help

and for those who think im sadly deluded and running away
then go practice your christian virtue and pray for my soul
or something useful along that line instead of giving me ur disapproving comments