while talking to lian today, mmm
other than learning about various interesting happenings

i was reminded of something that really helps me
there are so many what ifs in life

what if i was smarter, taller, more handsome,
what if i went to some elite sch instead of everyones fav sch in an opposition ward

but when we do that we are talking rubbish
senile rot if i may so call it

what did not happen does not exist....
yes it could have been, but how are we to know
unless some alternate dimension is out there, with a jeremy,
who is smarter than me, more charming and maybe even gay....