discontent

there has been of late,
a silent knawing at my heart
and uncomfortable discontent with certain dilemmas i face around me
moral choices, maybe not that obvious or clear
issues i don't wish to deal with sprout up
confrontations with aspects i thought natural to my being
and of course
where there are people there are bound to be problems
hahah
it creates a problem
when the rules u set for urself,
the rules behind relationships suddenly seem constricting
and u begin silent coup

hai well
sometimes when we see someone close to us struggle,
we feel pain for them
so many people around me
struggling
hai
honestly, i think it's getting hard for me to voice my opinion
maybe because i have ceased to have a politically correct one
or maybe i just don't know myself anymore