i think God has really used the recent CMW and the christian reunion dinner to speak to me
beginning to realise once again the futility of trying to go it alone
hai
should have relied on Him more
should have prayed more
at least when i cried out to Him he was always there for me
i thank Him that even when i turned my back and walked away
He was faithful
and never left me to my plight
constantly wooing my heart,
calling me back
gently convicting me
and stirring my heart
hai
its quite amazing really
God often uses the times when we least expect it to speak to us
maybe it's because we defend least against those times
christian reunion dinner to me at first was just some dinner where we would sit round and talk crap
but apparently God had other plans
hmm
what Mr Victor Wee and mrs tan shared really just touched my heart
about love, it represented by what we commit our time to
and how loving means not complaining or aruging and how as children of God we have so much priveleges and power
and how the world around us is depraved...
what i took away from it mainly is the fact that i have to return to falling in love with God again
i walked so far just to realise this...
i really must thank God again for how he carried me through the cmw period
so much work
and so many problems
but he always provided a way
even though i spent most of the time cursing under my breath rather than crying out to HIm

all this has made me realise

i want to fall in love with Him again