homesick

read finish problem of pain by C.S.Lewis
good old Lewis
hai
the last chapter really did alot to me
hmm
maybe because i was high on coffee
haha
maybe i shd do all my readings at starbucks
hahahah
but seriously
maybe Gods finally dealing with my view of the world
anyways, gotta say tt yeah,
feeling better than i have ever felt
but then again
i guess further from it all then ever
finally reconciled the role of thinker in a way
i guess there has always been room for the intellectual adoration of Christ
just that maybe not a role well explored by the church
then again
i guess i dun really have the right to say much
except maybe
hmm
i guess just gotta learn as i go along
we learn
bit by bit
we learn
new painful lesson everyday
so here i am,
i guess making a little more sense of it all then i did yesterday
ahah
still probably have no idea at all
but i guess its ok