feelin kinda moody and depressed
gosh
somethings wrong with me recently
cant stand looking at books
even though i guess i ought to start real soon
hmm
how does the gov expect us to do our best if they gonna give us nothing to look forward to?

anyways

hmm
been slacking off real badly
installed some old games
the kind where u conquer the world and wipe the floor with the com AI
haha
theraputic
hmm
only thing stopping me from lashing out at everything stupid going on around me
gosh

i need to go out for a drink soon
going bonkers

do you even know,
do you even percieve the nightmares
do you see the wide eyed fears?

teach me to love and not count the cost