im feeling kinda moody again
gosh
my moods been going down the drain recently
i have no idea why
either that or i have some idea but i dun feel like telling

hmm
im glad that u all seem happy
i guess that should make me happy...
of cos numbness is just as well
hmm
i dunno
i really dont

hai
im reminded of a poem
so fair
so sweet
hm
if only reality could be added to
akin james gillmans
that the first vampire
would come and entwine our fates
then i could come to the rescue
but i guess
reality isnt like that

i dun noe wad to say and do
numb the distress?
find an alternative
i have no idea

in other less depressing matters
well
schs out
i guess
i guess i have to thank GOd that i really found and made good friends
strangely moreso as sch came to an end
ppl like jeremy, eeli, hmm yao yong and joelynn
hmm
part of me wishes i got to know u long before
but i guess im already blessed
and who noes
maybe things are best the way they are
i wouldnt noe and i daresnt postulate...


ive decided to change my tagboard
hopefully to one that doesnt screw up so often
hmm
matches the background at least
ahahha

as i said before
i like black because its slimming
hahaha

its hurts
to get rejected
i nvr knew the unkindest cut could ever be so sweet and unassuming
but as caesar mouthed: et tu brute
i opened up dropped my guard
and got hurt
where i go from here i dun noe
maybe this is all in my mind
but im good at getting messages
i guess its all wishful thinking
that bright eyed aversion hurt bad
i told myself years ago it wasnt to be
i guess i was right then
i just wish
i dunno
i just wish we all could win
but i guess somethings arent to be

All they who live in the upper sky, Do love you

Her face resigned to bliss or bale--
Her face, oh call it fair not pale,
And both blue eyes more bright than clear.
Each about to have a tear.

With open eyes (ah, woe is me !)
Asleep, and dreaming fearfully,
Fearfully dreaming, yet, I wis,
Dreaming that alone, which is-
-O sorrow and shame !

i will not make the same mistake as Sir Leoline