hai, well ive graduated
and ive gotten my enlistment letter,
for those who want to noe the date
ask me personally for it

gah
strange really
the numbness that sets in even on the brink of such a huge change
my dad is like going bonkers over it asking me if im prepared

i honestly dun noe
dun really care either
dun really have anything to look forward to i guess
kinda drifting
maybe i'll become a hobo in the future

hmm

well
three times and the rooster crows
three times and i turn my head to weep

You're the one who set it up
now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget
every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

Wish that I could cry Fall upon my knees
well im no hero thats true
but well
i guess im trying to learn that its alright to cry

We need never be ashamed of our tears.
-Great Expectations

it may not be my mantra but well
i guess the stuff inside has to come out one way or another
for us introverts, well
we may not pour it all out at the first tipping
but that doesnt mean its not in there
just because it isnt written on our faces and our sleeves,
doesnt make us less human
poker players maybe
but i guess with have to learn to deal with the grief, angst and wrath inside somehow
and i guess they say that laughter and tears are theraputic

but i guess there comes a time when the laughs seem empty
and we must learn to mourn
learn to grief
and be more 'human'

cry, for pains, hurts & shame
cry, for the cruel words, cruel glances, and silent whispers
cry, release those unmet expectations, broken dreams
cry, let loose the inner conflicts and struggles,
cry, for all the wishing thinking, what ifs and could have beens
cry, grief for the state of our depravity
cry, but move on after the tears have dried
cry, mourn awhile for me

well looks like as the government would have it
i wont be around here for long
think of me
think of me kindly
when we say goodbye