been listening to everywhere i go by lissie, far too much to be healthy
sometimes i wonder if im emotionally imbalanced, my favorite christmas song is florence and the machine's cover of last christmas

sometimes i wonder what life would be like if we could live in a society without expectations,
without obligations without disappointments
where we could just be, without having to worry about the utility of our actions


been seriously contemplating every few days about just burning my bridges and cutting all ties,

ignoring emails and calls and smses( well more than i usually do)

i doubt it'd make a difference
well maybe it'd inconvenience some, like theyd have to worry how they'd get another sound man on a sunday or something, not like i give a shit at this point

its not my job to make sure that there is someone around to do sound
of course it would be nice, and the proprious thing to do,

but im getting tired of doing the nice thing

whats our worth anyways?
they say doing sound is like a toilet bowl,
aside from how disturbing an image it is,
its always been my favourite analogy

sigh didnt mean to rant,
just that i dont want to hang around a place i dont want to be in dec, but i fear i may be too nice to tell them to bugger off and solve their own problem
i guess its my fault for not telling them sooner