was thinking/talking over msn about the whole predestitnation armenian/calvanistic broohooha

and several thoughts just came and i wanted to take them down somewhere, so im posting here,
i think teh middle ground im taking is one that we are presented with free will,
and granted some of choices do have overarching consequence for example if we reject salvation,
or today choose to go out and commit some heneous blasphamy

but i think at the same time, God takes either option we do choose and somehow still woves it into the scheme of things

its like perhaps RPGs where NPC dialogue has no effect on the game ending, but just flavours the journey???

but at the same time, i lesson i learnt by getting thrashed by AI at chess has taught me one thing

that it may take one mistake to doom us,
but that usually happens mid game instead of late

and sometimes even incrementally
a small group of bad decisions add together to doom us 20 moves down the road

maybe lifes like that
we keep making the stupid and bad decisions
and they eventually add up, and God has to come along and pull a miracle


whose to say that thats not His plan

maybe we should stop communicating for awhile?
people who have a propensity to run away probably shouldnt egg each other on