Trust

Learning to let go of insecurity,
learning to lay it down and take hope
why do I find it so hard?

You hold the world in Your hands,
creation, in its seemingly infinite continuity, and unpredictable uncertainty
exists as a defined constant to You.
You transcend time, for creation can never bind the creator
My past, my present, my future,
You view in your incomprehensible Now,
and You have promised it to be good

So who am I, a mortal man, that i dare to doubt Your word?
Through Your Word alone, i came into existance,
and by accepting Your word, I have been redeemed.
is it then within my capacity to doubt that which caused and sustains my existance?

As i ponder about this matter,
I am utterly convinced of what a lowly, flippant despicable human being I really am
I foolishly trust in myself and in circumstance,
while i dare to doubt the constant that remains through all eternity.

Lord teach me not to despair,
but to look past my failings and to Your abundant grace.
Help me to all but disappear in view of Your amazing reality
Tear down the stronghold of cynicism and doubt.
Where fear and confusion once festered,
let there arise faith, hope and charity.
Help me to remain steadfast in my will,
holding on to Your promises, that you "will never leave me nor forsake me"
and that "the plans you have for me, will prosper me not harm me"
Teach me to trust in You