life conc 08

what a blast
i dunno how to put it into words
the sweat tears toil
the euphoria
the craziness
the move of God
the humbling of self
the brocolli
lol

i think the milestone for me this year
well apart from not being able to help much
was really to both see my juniors rise up as well as hmm
i guess getting to know some really amazing people

im realising how little talent and ability i actually have
no this is not self deprication
but if we all realistically look at ourselves
and have a proper knowledge of what skill and talent really is
then hmm
its like they say
the more one knows the more one knows how much he doesnt know
but yeah
i think whats amazing about it is how God calls us, we who have little to honour him with it
and i think sometimes, its like a blessing
because that way we learn to rely on Him more
its kinda like pauls thorn in the side
although maybe we're spared the thorn
and yeah like chaos said
"he kinda made more mistakes?"
but hmm
i guess its a lesson of God moving through our weaknesses

i think its really cool
to know that we have this big christian family out there
who go beyond church or school
who are labouring for the unsaved

and well
although i missed planetshakers this year
i think i didnt miss all that much
cos i got to be a small part of another movement
mayhaps less professional but not lacking in heart or intent
cheeros

part of me wishes to be a big part of all these
the music lights
and the message
i wish i had more outlets
but i guess maybe ive got to become more humbled and broken first

i give up this dream to You
oh giver of dreams
because only in You
can anything really be worth anything