Breakthrough

Recently God brought me a personal breakthrough.
It has been a refreshing change to the pervading struggle i face.
Lets hope this fallow period lasts longer than my previous ones(less than 1 wk)

Lets see...
I guess during this period, due to previous events and struggles, i got really tired
it was as if i was in a routine of testing, a rut of struggling which i could not get out of
i got really tired
wanted to give up
refused to surrender to God

But then he heard my cry
He answered
first he told me that he loves me not for wad i can do for him
but for who i am
then he told me to submit
then he told me that although i felt like i was in a rut
but i was growing
and that he saw my pain and anguish
and he collected my tears
and that even though i cried
i was growing
when i heard that, i cried and cried

he feels out pain, our brokeness
he cries alongside us
when we feel wretched
he feels it too
when we struggle to submit
he still loves us
He l0ves us no matter what
it makes us feel so broken sometimes
to know that we are loved even when we fail
it makes us feel so unworthy
so hard to accept his love and grace
but i guess thats why struggling on is worth it
Because He loves us