A song so familiar,
a stanza i know by heart.
but when i try to sing it,
it doesn't come out right
my lips falter,
my voice fails
words once embraced so tight
now burden my heart.

so i haved reached my lowest.
Stumbled so far off track
now i'm living each day without purpose,
drifting along the waves of circumstance,
carried along by the tide

take me back again
into Your arms
i miss Your embrace
to hear You say, this child's mine

dunno

saw her running today,
argh,
a face and a name,
thats all i know about her, save some observations from afar,
part of me wants to get to know her better,
but that's only one part.
Why bother when im fated to crash and burn?
why chase a dream when it'll probably mean me falling on my face again

My life of late seems to be one long series of bad choices
I dunno,
is my share, my plot?
Pray for me
Cause im far, very far from the course i once pursued

lmao

The only reason why im posting such a lame post,
i'm blogging from school.
JC life is so much more hectic than what i'm used to
So much to do, so many deadlines,
so little time to do other things
hai

I'm having a hard time coping with both PW and chinese,
argh chinese, the tongue of the orientals
the bane of man,

at least the camaraderie makes up for it abit

well this is me, facing a new phase of my life.
Dealing with so many more problems and experiences
well at least there's much more eye candy than sec sch
especially my sec sch, hahahah, since its a all boys sec sch
Anyways, things have changed much.
I have changed alot, maybe too much
To be frank, i won't say my relationship with Him is going that smoothly
My relationship with the church? hai

Winds are changing,
and i'm standing on strange ground
I just pray i find my feet before i fall

I came across this really cool T-shirt design
Why men are happier
Car mechanics tell you the truth
The world is your urinal
wrinkles add character
chocolate is just another snack
you know stuff about tanks
you can open your own jars
three pairs of shoes is enough
your last name stays put
you only have to shave your face

distracted, chasing after a rainbow

i couldnt help laughing when i saw this newly released donghaeng comic(its the post b4 this)
Jokes are most funny when they hurt,
paradoxical aint it,

well, i feel it speaks so much to me
gotten so distracted,
chased after so many ideals
seeked satisfaction from many sources
and all i can conclude
is like wad the wisest man said so long ago
meaningless, meaningless,
Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless.

seeked fufillment in so many places,
and just ended up more empty than before
wad pricks my heart so bad is the knowledge that God wants to bless me so much
its just that im finding it so hard to come back to him
i guess this is why i shouldnt have entertained thoughts of leaving Him in the first place

cos the trail of bread crumbs has been consumed,
and i don't remember the way back

so this is chasing the rainbow
chasing the illusive dream
all you find is a circular phenomenen in the sky.
I gave up true light, for a distorted, coloured image of it
so this is how i've walked.
too far off,
too far down
God help me

dong haeng

worlds apart

I am the only one to blame for this
Some how it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icharus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,more abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

thrilless

Nothing seems to be of interest anymore.
i dunno,
wad i want seems so far out of reach,
everything else that seemed pragmatic and prudent has just lost its luster,
as someone told me before,
im becoming motivated only by the prospect of discomfort,

In simpler terms, i do all i can to avoid possible unpleasantries,
instead of chasing after what would be desirable

is that what it has come down to?
even lower primates and other animals know how to perform tasks to avoid discomfort
have i fallen to such a stage?
no ambition what so ever?
no goals what-so-ever
nevermind whether short term or long term but none at all?

looking at current circumstances,
well i've actually been really blessed recently
isit as rev. tony said
when we satisfy the physical but not the spiritual,
we end up really disastisfied.
i wonder whether thats my case
everything seems to be going well
but why isit i find it so hard to find satisfaction?