i dont know if it was a stupid thing to do
but i agreed to more work
lol
hahaha
well honestly i wont mind
im more worried if im not capable enough
hai
but really
i think life has come to such a point whereby i am totally willing to help out SFC
but hmm
in non para organisations,
lets say there is no enthusiasm at all.....
well
shant say too much
my head may roll
just would like to say that yeah
im really beginning to appreciate all the people placed around me
especially in school
so many good role models and fellow wayfarers....
wish i could say the same about.....
hai
well
when life gives u lemons....
i dont know.....
i dont like lemonade.....
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
so now the pressure is starting to build up
with easter week a week away, one full-dress down, another to go
and with last minute admin and work to settle, life is begginning to get hectic......
at least now i know i have stuff to do
and hopefully i can get through it in one piece
at least i now know that i am not the only one with these sentiments
but is that comfort enough?
i dont know, but i dont think circumstances will change much for the better in time to come
so either i change, or i leave?
sigh
seems like that is the popular route out
is it?
i cant say i have no where else to go
because i do
so what now?
i really have no idea
we shall just wait and see
with easter week a week away, one full-dress down, another to go
and with last minute admin and work to settle, life is begginning to get hectic......
at least now i know i have stuff to do
and hopefully i can get through it in one piece
at least i now know that i am not the only one with these sentiments
but is that comfort enough?
i dont know, but i dont think circumstances will change much for the better in time to come
so either i change, or i leave?
sigh
seems like that is the popular route out
is it?
i cant say i have no where else to go
because i do
so what now?
i really have no idea
we shall just wait and see
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
block test
hmm, its test time of the year
hmm
well at least ive got an excuse for not blogging for some time liao
ahah
ive been
well
hmm
ive been having the time of my life really
strange, i never expected test time to be so enjoyable.
i think maybe it is because it takes my mind off other things
so many things going wrong
hmm
even things i thought would never falter did
at least there is still grace
really
cant say that i enjoy going to church,
but hey, at least i go
and i dont try to fake that i do enjoy it
i wish it were easier to relate to God, at least out of a better posture
not one whereby i feel far away
well i hope its just a feeling
ahhaha
anyways
yeah
the road to life concert,
seemed smooth sailing at first
now suddenly has become so rocky
big bills
chicken pox
lack of manpower
its no coincidence that 2 days from the 1st full dress rehersal our lead guitarist was down
hmm
well im believing tht it will be no coincidence that he will be miraculously healed by friday
hahahah
sounds strange coming from me
but maybe the eternal optimist has begun rubbing off on me
anyways, i think im not really doing my job
im lousy at admin and at gathering resources and people
probably better at being a grunt
lol
anyways
serving in some places has become a real chore while in other places has been a joy
i dont know
most people would assume it to be the other order
better not say too much
but yeah
life has been great even with all the problems
ahhahaha
dun noe
maybe its the company im keeping
mix with the right people
it will really bolster your mood
anyways
been really interesting
really really interesting
ahahahah
going deliriou5?
ahahah
maybe the crazed intoxication has gotten to me
i hope no one understands that
lol
hahah
anyway
i think im going to change my blog song
faith enough
by jars of clay
discography: who we are instead
its a great song, so i shall let it speak for itself
hmm
well at least ive got an excuse for not blogging for some time liao
ahah
ive been
well
hmm
ive been having the time of my life really
strange, i never expected test time to be so enjoyable.
i think maybe it is because it takes my mind off other things
so many things going wrong
hmm
even things i thought would never falter did
at least there is still grace
really
cant say that i enjoy going to church,
but hey, at least i go
and i dont try to fake that i do enjoy it
i wish it were easier to relate to God, at least out of a better posture
not one whereby i feel far away
well i hope its just a feeling
ahhaha
anyways
yeah
the road to life concert,
seemed smooth sailing at first
now suddenly has become so rocky
big bills
chicken pox
lack of manpower
its no coincidence that 2 days from the 1st full dress rehersal our lead guitarist was down
hmm
well im believing tht it will be no coincidence that he will be miraculously healed by friday
hahahah
sounds strange coming from me
but maybe the eternal optimist has begun rubbing off on me
anyways, i think im not really doing my job
im lousy at admin and at gathering resources and people
probably better at being a grunt
lol
anyways
serving in some places has become a real chore while in other places has been a joy
i dont know
most people would assume it to be the other order
better not say too much
but yeah
life has been great even with all the problems
ahhahaha
dun noe
maybe its the company im keeping
mix with the right people
it will really bolster your mood
anyways
been really interesting
really really interesting
ahahahah
going deliriou5?
ahahah
maybe the crazed intoxication has gotten to me
i hope no one understands that
lol
hahah
anyway
i think im going to change my blog song
faith enough
by jars of clay
discography: who we are instead
its a great song, so i shall let it speak for itself
Sunday, March 12, 2006
coffee
just a personal opinion,
but starbucks is so much better than coffee bean
well at least if you are a coffee purist,
maybe im just biased, but coffee bean does not have anything particularly strong on its menu,
and the cups are smaller
hmm
coffee bean just sells alot of sweet nothings which just appeal to the sweet tooth, not to the caffine deprived soul
its interesting really,
how easily we can get uprooted,
and find things around us so different, so suffocating
so
changed...
i guess change is one of the great constants in life,
everything changes
at least everything other than God,
but change hurts
especially when its something we hold close
like beliefs or friends
its like in the words of the only chinese song i ever really liked,
time passes, and the friends we once had are now no longer close,
and the only thing we have left are memories....
so easily, we get uprooted, and we find that we dont fit in like we used to
the people, the buildings, the air, its all changed,
i guess we've changed much too
maybe its like Aslan says to Lucy in prince caspian,
its not that I've grown, but You've grown, and so i seem bigger to you
doesnt make much sense
but i guess change doesnt make much sense either
in words that worry me,
a friend expressed her anxiety that a bunch of us who grew quite close recently are probably not close enough to remain close in the next few years,
a group of friends who i have become especially fond of
hmm
i have never been really great at making friends
thru 4 yrs of sec sch education, i only made a handful of really good friends
and even than, its hard to even keep in contact with them
and some people who i thought i would never lose touch with
are phantoms to me now,
ghost from the past who by some cosmic coincidence bump into me from time to time.
i guess its kind of my fault too
nvr really appreciated the friends i had
took many of them for granted, and lived in a world of melochany where i mourned what i did not have
so much so that i lost much of what i did have
well
so before its too late
if you were or still are a good friend to me, whether i realised it or not,
thank you
for being there
and im sorry if it seems that we're no longer as close as we used to be
i cant say i wish we still were close, but well, there are good memories
ahhahahaha
but really
i wish i wasnt such a waste
waste of potential
waste of effort
what can we claim to have gained?
nothing really
nothing at all
really drives home the fact that we come with nothing and take back nothing
now if only the universal constant God was more constant in our lives
maybe we'd lose less
but starbucks is so much better than coffee bean
well at least if you are a coffee purist,
maybe im just biased, but coffee bean does not have anything particularly strong on its menu,
and the cups are smaller
hmm
coffee bean just sells alot of sweet nothings which just appeal to the sweet tooth, not to the caffine deprived soul
its interesting really,
how easily we can get uprooted,
and find things around us so different, so suffocating
so
changed...
i guess change is one of the great constants in life,
everything changes
at least everything other than God,
but change hurts
especially when its something we hold close
like beliefs or friends
its like in the words of the only chinese song i ever really liked,
time passes, and the friends we once had are now no longer close,
and the only thing we have left are memories....
so easily, we get uprooted, and we find that we dont fit in like we used to
the people, the buildings, the air, its all changed,
i guess we've changed much too
maybe its like Aslan says to Lucy in prince caspian,
its not that I've grown, but You've grown, and so i seem bigger to you
doesnt make much sense
but i guess change doesnt make much sense either
in words that worry me,
a friend expressed her anxiety that a bunch of us who grew quite close recently are probably not close enough to remain close in the next few years,
a group of friends who i have become especially fond of
hmm
i have never been really great at making friends
thru 4 yrs of sec sch education, i only made a handful of really good friends
and even than, its hard to even keep in contact with them
and some people who i thought i would never lose touch with
are phantoms to me now,
ghost from the past who by some cosmic coincidence bump into me from time to time.
i guess its kind of my fault too
nvr really appreciated the friends i had
took many of them for granted, and lived in a world of melochany where i mourned what i did not have
so much so that i lost much of what i did have
well
so before its too late
if you were or still are a good friend to me, whether i realised it or not,
thank you
for being there
and im sorry if it seems that we're no longer as close as we used to be
i cant say i wish we still were close, but well, there are good memories
ahhahahaha
but really
i wish i wasnt such a waste
waste of potential
waste of effort
what can we claim to have gained?
nothing really
nothing at all
really drives home the fact that we come with nothing and take back nothing
now if only the universal constant God was more constant in our lives
maybe we'd lose less
Saturday, March 04, 2006
night
as still as the darkness,
as bleak as the rain
the call of the raven chilling the soul
judgement looms
and the ghosts of the past afflict
cessation is at the door
empty tombs,
mortality certain
the struggle pending
solitary, quiet hostility,
bloodstained nothingness
lycans howl and perish
smitten
in the numbing downpour
a point of no return
a field of blood
john 13:30 As soon as Judas had taken the bread, he went out. And it was night.
John 9:4As long as it is day, we must do the work of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. 5While I am in the world, I am the light of the world."
as bleak as the rain
the call of the raven chilling the soul
judgement looms
and the ghosts of the past afflict
cessation is at the door
empty tombs,
mortality certain
the struggle pending
solitary, quiet hostility,
bloodstained nothingness
lycans howl and perish
smitten
in the numbing downpour
a point of no return
a field of blood
john 13:30 As soon as Judas had taken the bread, he went out. And it was night.
John 9:4As long as it is day, we must do the work of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. 5While I am in the world, I am the light of the world."
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