Decided I'll start writing again as well since I'm unemployed and thus and bound to be free. To be honest I'm feeling a little deflated today, maybe part of it is seeing all my friends get their first class and knowin I could have if I fought for it harder.... Maybe part of it is the knowledge that I'm growing older but lack direction and ambition.... I used to hope that God would help me find my place.... Maybe because I strayed... Or maybe I was never that close to begin with Or maybe, just maybe there isn't a perfect will or a perfect place Maybe there isn't a better or worse Maybe there's just the here and the now, and it sucks but its all we'll ever have

how did you find your way into my mind cos i was on my way out of sight, of mind, of reach to beg a question am i what you are looking for I don't know myself anymore

a song for ages gone by of myth and mystery of lights in the sky I thought I'd found in you meaning misguided Scattered sheep lost sons help me to find you help me to know you