i probably should find a more suitable template but im lazy

sch is on the brink on starting and im strangely looking forward to it

although
yes after thinking about what you said
i think i am a bad influence
i shall start asking the people around me to mug from now on

changed my template abit.... lols cos well who the heck reads my blog anyways??!!!

friends i was out with today with brought up an interesting point

that instead of sa i should have gone to one of the top schs in singapore
get a proper education
then instead of getting the mindset that i probably wouldnt get a scholarship if i tried
i would be driven and all
maybe be in some ivy league place somewhere far away challenging myself
maybe

if u asked me a few years ago if i would change my choices if i could turn back time
i would probably refuse

but time it seems makes a fool of us all

i mean like why the hell not
go to some place where they would groom me to be the best
get teachers to brainwash me: that i have a bright future and am the future leader of tomorrow and all that bull

maybe things would be better
maybe id be out there right now seeing the world, having the rest of my life laid out ahead of me

maybe id have a little something called ambition
doesnt the world and everybody like to see that in a person
and with that a whole lot of swagger and attitude

heck, i may even be one of them elitist bastards, (i seem to have met alot recently)
pompous jerks who only aim for the top and trample on everyone who doesnt get out of their way

well ive met enough of these "highfliers" to think that it probably doesnt make a difference

heck, maybe all the real highfliers are busy flying too high studying overseas at havard or mit to meet me, so my uneducated opinion is simply just that

my favourite author whom i havent quoted in awhile did note that its useless talking about what might have been because in any case,
it isnt
and aside from what is (though some quantum mechanics metaphysicist may say with their metaphysical theories of alternate universes sprouting everytime we make a decision)
there is no other

some days though, i do wish i knew what i wanted
maybe it wouldnt be too bad even if it proved to be some illusive dream