need i mention that tommy E was amazing?
hahaha
gosh
i no longer dare to tell people that i play guitar

so the concert was a blast
mmm
and the conversations with chaos today were amazing as well

various quotes:

chaos- i like girls who like guys with big heads and ear piercings

chaos- u should get a big head(like how?) and ear piercings too.....

as much as it seems like a match made in heaven,
some how, when talking abt getting an orange afro(dun ask me how he manages to bring such things in the conversation)
chao yuan caught the attention of this ang moh girl
who apparently sweeps him off his feet leaving him speechless
needing tim wan to help answer this girls request as to where a costume shop can be found
(wow, she apparently wants to match his dress sense)
our hero(well not really) apparently has taken to the bleached hair, lip pierced specimens

mmm

so i guess when u come to get me u'll be sporting a new blond-bleached hairdo and a lip piercing
and an indeterminable western accent

mmm
maybe u shd change ur name to amanda too or something

i think im losing my breath

actually regarding the movie mentioned 3 posts ago
its showing at cathay picturehouse
its called tokyo!
its 3 short films
but i didnt really like the middle one
the 3rd one though as i mentioned was fantastic

but you wash over me
you wash over me like rain
and you wash over me
you wash over me like sunshine

i dont know wad to feel anymore?

a pic from one of my fav short movies ive ever seen
shaking tokyo
nothing i can say would do much justice to it?
and i dun think u would be able to catch it unless of cos some bum uploads it online
mmm
so well
you deprived ppl remain deprived

but i think somehow my world has started to tremble too
and there is much fear and a freezing of time
i wonder if that one button that makes a difference exists
for me

i wanted to add this song to my blog, but this is the best i could do, cos i can only find videos of this song

YouTube - Lifehouse - From Where You Are

do you ever get that feeling
where you're so tired of routine, you just want to run away
from everything familiar
do you ever feel lost, like you dont know where ur headed, but you know its not on the up and up

do you ever feel the despair, knowing what lies ahead isnt all sunny and roses


somedays i feel like tearing out of my flesh
no this isnt some alien spawn living under my sternum talking

but sometimes, even when im having the time of my life
i just feel the futility of it all
arent we supposed to be soaring?

the horizons are supposed to be infinite
but we dont seem able to get 3 feet off the ground

theres something missing
something lacking
it isnt even about fulfillment of dreams
cos even if we get there
big whoop
what then

what does all this
matter?
why should it

ambition
it makes a strive for higher heights
but for what
we put ourselves through the mental, and psychological somersaults
to get to what landing?
a better cafeteria?

they werent wrong you know
the hard headed fundamentalist

we're given freedom but we arent made for it
it was wrong to cage us, yes
but they did show us the importance of dreams
even if their version was outdated and irrelevant

now we're left with an open cage and open skies
but we've lost that road in the sky

help me
fly away from this land of winter
to the place of perpetual sun
cause i cant take this cold no more

when im with you,
my heart doesnt exactly skip a beat
but the world seems nicer
and i cant help turning back to see you smile

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind
In your mind
Changing myself, just to stand alone in your eyes
In your eyes
Pull me in, take me out, make me over

lifehouse rocks
lols
well aside from stating the obvious
if you think their records are good,
you should see them perform live

and i shall dispel the myth
they are not a christian band?
and yeah
although their lead singer/songwriter is
as per their interview
they are in it for the music

so anyways, for those interested
how am i
mmmmmmm
i dont really like answering that question at this point
cause, well good besides being a generalisation, isnt fitting at all
and i'd probably give a sardonic answer like "breathing" (sorry emm)
but i guess i really should reflect abit?

well im not exactly rejoicing in my present circumstances
well euphemisms aside
mm
im kinda enjoying going around visiting?
maybe too much
been to some churches i find quite comfortable
haha
but no ideas yet
gosh
how am i on a personal spiritual basis?
gosh
i have no idea how to answer that
i guess that doesnt mean anything good?
i guess im not exempt from disappointment and doubt

but i guess like whats new right
like i said
this isnt just a search for a new church
i think ive lost/never had much a sense of purpose/destiny
so its kinda a roadtrip to find that

if i dao ur msgs
well tts bcos im antisocial and dun mind being mean
if you didnt know that already
well
maybe i shd include that into my introduction next time

hi im jeremy quek
im mean and slightly antisocial

so anyways
to be honest
i dont miss rcc
although i guess i act like i do sometimes?

i havent really been contemplating the present predicament
been filling my time with things to do
i guess avoiding the questions with answers i dun have
or dun want to admit

being busy is fun?
i guess
makes it seem strange that there was a time i did little but hurt alot
from basically just musing

but i do miss having a ministry
gosh
maybe i made it an idol
but i do miss the days
when we sat round with a guitar
and play the few songs we did master
sing our hearts out
too caught up in just the act to taint the intent
it wasnt grand
but it changed me inside
slowly

where do i go from here?

im being a big idiot
and i dun know how to proceed

i hope i dun lose myself
i hope i dun lose you