just finished surprised by joy by CS Lewis
one source of great comfort to me is that my hero didnt think much of the practice of keeping a journal
and so i shall not have to feel guilty about not keeping one

mmm
i think i took loads more from that book than that
but my power of introspection isnt strong enough for me to make it a meaningful blogpost

just shall mention this one thing i feel is of vital importance....
for many, CS Lewis' conversion experience seems to be a wholly intellectual affair
and so not spiritual in any sense
i think this could not be further from the truth
i think no one verily comes to God on his own
and as shown by C.S.L he was pursued by God, not the other way round
the impetus to choose God is provided by Him

i believe the intellectual response can be just as spiritual as the emotional one

some may quote scripture that God confounds our wisdom, and that God's wisdom is foolishness to us
but arent there scripture as well that warn us that the heart is deceitful

i think God meets us where we are and in accordance to what we are

perhaps both the emotional and intellectual response in themselves dont measure up to what God wants
but than do we ever measure up by our own efforts


i think the problem is that nowadays, one unspoken heresy in the modern church is (in simple mathematics) that God moving=feeling His presence
i think this bugbear has arose because so many men of God say that i feel or sense God's presence/move
which while not wrong has caused the view that God's presence since not sensuous must be emotionally indicated
and this may be true in some circumstances
its just circumstantial or in a more mathematical term, correlation
God's modus operandi isnt limited to the emotional realm, although i must admit, it is a powerful tool


i think we should stop thinking that "God has moved" if there is a strong emotional or physical response
2 things, God is constantly on the move, even if we have no subjective evidence to allay our doubts about this
and also, i think the emotional response while powerful is short term
not that the intellectual response is inherently better or has a longer shelf life
i think that we should adopt the attitude that whether we see the move or not,
God is always at His business
and we try our best
and the only reliable indicator of success (although we shouldnt be looking for one) is probably that of retrospection
it is scriptural to judge things by their fruit